My Life

I help you through hard times, as you do I
But you really don’t know how much I hide
Even though we are the best of friends
I really don’t think you can understand

Always angry for no reason at all
Constantly wanting to end this brawl
Fighting with myself again, and again,
Sometimes I want this life to end

Too many friends are hurt as well
Thinking that their life is hell
Too many friends wanting to stop
Thinking suicide is the only way

Sticking through, the thick and thin
Never seeming to be able to win
Walking down this long dark hall
And that's the end, that is all.

Poem: I Remember

I remember sewing straight through the middle of my finger in the eight grade. I had to go to the emergency room to get the thread out of my finger. Blood was everywhere!

I remember accidently over dosing on sleeping pills and ended up throwing up four times that night. I felt hung-over the next day. And my sister was with me and told me all this crazy stuff I said that I don't remember.

I remember going to the (Boys Like Girls) concert last summer with my friends, it was awesome! Front row seats! Touched the main guys leg and we were in the mosh! It was fantastic!

I remember going Snowboarding to the Canyons every friday when I was seven, still do! Season passes, freezing cold, and hot chocolate! Snowboarding was some of my favorite memories of all time. =)

Stan #11

"My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all, the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all. And even If i could it would all be gray, but your picture on my wall, It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad...." (repeats) Dear Slim, I wrote you but you still ain't calling, I left my cell my pager and my home phone at the bottom. I sent two letters back in Autumn you must not-a got em. There probably was a problem at the post office or something. Sometimes I scibble the address's too sloppy when I jot-em. But anyways forget it, what's up man? How's your daughter? My girlfriends pregnant to, I'm bout to be a father. If I have a daughter, guess what I'm gonna call her? I'm gonna name her Bonnie. I read about your uncle Ronnnie too im sorry I had a friend who killed himself over some girl who didn't want him. I know you probably hear this everyday but I'm your biggest fan I even got the underground stuff you did with skam. I got a room full of your posters and your pictures man. I like the stuff you did with Rawkus too, that stuff was fat. Anyways I hope you get this man, hit me back just to chat truely yours your biggest fan this is Stan.

Impulse 2

1. We need to talk....

2. Again? Don't we talk... a lot lately...?

1. This time It's important.

2. Isn't is always important?

1. Look, its just not working out....

2. What do you mean?

1. You and me, me and you, both of us together.... I'm just not feeling it anymore.

2. Feeling what?

1. I don't love you anymore.

2. Sure you do, you're just tired.

1. No, I can feel it in my stomach.

2. You're lunch just didn't agree with you.

1. My lunch doesn't have anything to do with this! Are you calling me fat?!

2. You're crazy woman...

1. See! You are so mean to me!

2. Sinse when is stating a fact mean..? I thought you wanted me to be honest with you?

1. I AM NOT CRAZY!

2. Stop shouting crazy woman!

1. That's it! It's over!

2. See, I told you you were crazy.